Three weeks and still kicking

Proudly I can say I have not smoked in 3 weeks, sad to say my taste buds have changed and food I used to love I hate. Yesterday was my second diabetes class and the day started off scary, when I got up I did as I always do and tested my blood sugar, it was 331 so I then took my meds, ate breakfast and waited 2 hours and retested it, it was then 91 so I felt good. I went to class and they tested it again because they felt I didn't look right and my blood sugar was okay but my blood pressure was way up and my pulse was to fast. I told them "Well yeah ya keep poking me and worrying and of course I get all riled up". I am actually feeling fairly good other than my right leg and left foot, the RN at class says it sounds like gout but they won't know till my blood and urine test is done again. Life is definitely interesting and I am loving it.

Still no smoking

Well, it is day 8 and so far I've managed to stay away from cigarettes, but I haven't been out of my apartment yet either. I need to go to the store but worry that I will weaken while driving.

Day 4

Today was a bit rough for me to resist temptation, but I managed to win the debate with myself and stay tobacco free. My knee is a bit better tonight, but that is because I barely walk so it has had a lot of time to heal. Life is interesting there is no doubt, with my diabetes I take 2 pills a day and am supposed to eat lots of fish. With my hypothyrhoidism I have to take one pill a day and the COPD adds 3 inhalers to the mess, add a cholesterol pill and the sleep pill and I am a walking pharmacy. I am still striving to meet my goal and be tobacco free and able to walk at least a little ways in one of the walks they have here in October. The weather here is helping me not really want to be outside so that makes not smoking easier along with my messed up knee. It seems like it is a roller coaster we live on, at least for me there are super high days and super low days, I think I am managing to even the route forward out a bit finally and it only took 64 years to do it. lol

Day 2

Well, it has been about 10 days since I hurt my knee and was unable to do the stairs to go out for a cigarette more than once a day. Yesterday the pain was intense enough I didn't go out at all and I decided not to go out today either. Hopefully this is the start of the end of smoking, I do know my cough is much worse without the cigarettes than it was with 3 a day. I am thinking my knee pain might be gout or something along those lines, since it is not improving and is actually hurting worse than it did. I am supposed to go have the knee xrayed this coming week, but that will depend on whether I can walk or not. I sometimes wonder if I really want to sleep through tomorrow and wake up a full day later and see if I feel better after hibernation.

Rough days rougher nights

Its been over 2 weeks since I hurt my knee and it isn't improving at all, the doctor says it may not improve, so I guess I need to suck it up and quit my whining. Pity parties are never good for anyone, they don't help and they just bring your problems to the front of your mind. Tonight I am in such pain I don't know if I can even walk to the bathroom. I was going to take a pain pill but I hate living on those things so I took 2 tylenol instead. I know things happen for a reason but sometimes I just want to know what the reason is. Now that I know why I gained so much weight (diabetes and hypothyrhoidism) all I need to do is figure out how to lose the weight without using my legs. lol Maybe I can walk on my hands I used to do that as a kid. The time I got to spend with my family was fantastic and I am so grateful Cindy flew me down there, I was so thrilled that Lori made it to see me and spend time with us. It definitely helps my depression to sit and remember the good times, sometimes I tend to forget how good my life really is. I have two children, my son gave me two beautiful granddaughters, my daughter always seems to understand her crazy old mom. I live in a great house, the neighbors are all so nice and helpful, my little neighbor girl asked me today if she can call me grandma and I said sure you can. It made me feel young again to have an 8 year old granddaughter lol. Ok now my pity party is over and I will hopefully sleep well tonight. I guess this is therapeutic at least writing about it makes me realize how silly I am to feel sorry for myself.

Feels like summer

Today was a beautiful day, sunshine, light breezes and 83 degrees, I went and sat out at the picnic table and watched the mountains for several hours. Funny the mountains didn't really do anything but sit there and it was still exhilarating and peaceful, joining mother natures beauty makes a person feel young and at ease.

My new home

Just a couple of quick pictures of my new home.